It's my life, but not as I knew it!

2016 so far has not been kind to us. In the past 5 weeks we have visited 2 hospitals and 2 GP practices on 7 separate occasions; my mum has broken her femur (thigh bone), Cracker has had 2 anaphylactic reactions (to, as yet, an unknown cause) and is currently battling a 40oc fever (again of unknown origin) and Biscuit has been struggling with more viral-induced wheeze. 

The majority of these illnesses, and the subsequent doctor visits, have taken place in the evening or at the weekend. As parents we know that our children are more likely to need a medical assessment on a Friday evening, after a full 45 hour week at work, or on a Sunday of a Bank Holiday weekend. NB: if Jeremy Hunt doesn’t believe that doctors work at these unsocial times, let me tell you that they do. I have yet to walk in to an A&E department and been unable to see staff there. These unsocial visits have an impact on who looks after the other twinkle, work, family get-togethers, catching-up with uni friends (sorry girls) and, trust me on this one, family weddings. I know if you’re not living it, it is hard to believe how many things get cancelled or missed due to your little ones being unwell. I know where I’d rather be just as much as  I know where I’ve got to be.

Then there’s the stress of it. I have been nursing for 10 years now, but nothing prepares you for when it’s your baby sick and needing help. Rob always says that, in fact, it is worse for me as I have knowledge of the worst-case scenarios. I’m sure that the stress alone is enough to make parents sick, but you have to keep going for the child who is poorly (as well as the children who aren’t, but still need you). It doesn’t make you want to do anything bar relaxing at home (obviously whilst listening intently to the monitor for the slightest cough or sniffle)

I wish I could make Biscuit and Cracker 100% healthy, but until they get a bit bigger and hopefully a lot stronger we are going to have to deal with just how inconvenient ill health is. I only hope that our friends and family are patient enough to still be around when that happens….! 


As you all start preparing for your weekends, please let me tell you our story. 
This time last Friday my beautiful little man suffered his first anaphylactic reaction of the weekend. He was first assessed and treated by amazing paramedics (including one who managed to get a cannula in to a 3 year old’s veins whilst in the back of an ambulance speeding down Tottenham Court Road), then taken straight through to resuscitation before going to paediatric A&E and then spending the night on the paediatric ward. The same thing happened to us again after discharge on the Saturday. 

Our nightmare weekend started on Friday evening and ended on Sunday lunchtime; trust me when I tell you how unsocial these hours felt to me, let alone to the people working their shifts. During this time we were treated (because, yes, they looked after me just as much as him) by paramedics, consultants, registrars, junior doctors, nurses and student nurses, not to mention the porters, domestics and countless other people involved in hospital care. We experienced expert care, amazing treatment, and outstanding compassion. 

I have worked for the NHS for the last ten years (as well as 3 years previous as a student) and I know how hard we work. I know what is it like to be there at someone’s first breath and to hold someone’s hand at their last. I know what it is like to miss Christmases and birthdays (and countless family dinners). I have done 12 1/2 hour shifts with no time to eat, drink or pee. 

So Jeremy Hunt, I dare you to look at the story of how the NHS saved my son’s life (at a weekend) and the story of my working life and say that the doctors are “greedy”, that the paramedics are “ambulance drivers” and the student nurses don’t deserve a bursary. In fact, I challenge you to look me in the eye and tell me that the NHS is not worth fighting for.

#JuniorContract #NotFair #NotSafe #BursaryOrBust 


Hello and welcome to the last Trendy Toy Thursday of 2015. Once again, I thank you for your patience in sticking it out with us  since Biscuit and Cracker started school in September and our #TT_Thursdays became more sporadic. 

Our course this week has a Christmas theme, how could it not?! We love anything and everything about Christmas in our house. 

Biscuit and Cracker are both wearing jumpers from George at Asda. They were bought by their godfather Paul, and are absolutely fabulous! They go together as a pair really well and, surprisingly, there wasn’t even any fighting over who would wear which one! 

Biscuit decided that she was a “princess elf” because of the jumper coupled with her beautiful red, tutu skirt from Zara in Italy. We bought it in January thinking it would be perfect for Christmas, and it is! She has paired that with her elf Slugs and Snails tights. These are the exact same ones she wore this time last year, they just last so well! And her sparkly shoes purchased from Zulily have made another appearance!

Underneath her jumper is a brilliant Minion Christmas t-shirt from Primark, which declares “Santa, I can explain”! 

Cracker is a little trainee Father Christmas. He paired his jumper with some tracksuit bottoms from Marks and Spencer. Now he is choosing his clothes more and more, he will always go for tracksuit bottoms or shorts; like his mamma for loving comfort! At least they’re relatively smart ones! He is, as he always is, wearing his Lightening McQueen Crocs (we can’t get him in anything else when he’s not in school). 

His t-shirt is another Santa body one (like his jumper) from Primark with “#Santa’s number 1 fan” on it! 

All of us here at Casa Biscuit and Cracker wish you a Very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

To look at more of the last of 2015’s Trendy Tot Thursdays then please go to  The Mother Geek and Clearly Bex to see what everyone is wearing this unseasonably warm winter! 

My, life does seriously get away from you sometimes! I was all prepared to go with this Trendy Tot last week (12/11/2015) but totally forgot to post it. It wasn’t until first thing Monday morning that I had that face-palm moment. Sorry about that, it is why this post would have made so much more sense last week! 

We do not have an Asda near us. However there is one in deepest, darkest South London (relatively near my work) so I did get an opportunity to go in after work. And that is where I found these lovely pjs!    

 I grew up watching BBC Children In Need, and never failed to be touched by the images and stories told throughout the night. I had bought Cracker Pudsey ears and Biscuit Blush ears from Boots when they first came out. When in Asda I couldn’t resist the Pudsey/Blush pyjama bottoms for both of them. Cracker is usually hotter in bed than Biscuit so I got him the short-sleeved super hero t-shirt. Biscuit looks so beautiful in her amazing Blush long-sleeved t-shirt. Her pink slipper boots are from Joules and are perfect on these chillier days (Cracker wouldnt pose in his blue ones). 
I hope you enjoyed my rather belated Trendy Tot Thursday. Please keep up to date with the linky via Mother Geek and Clearly Bex; both of whom are much more organised than me and can keep up to date! 

Hi everyone! How are you all?

Having come from a huge rugby-loving household I have got really stuck in to the Rugby 2015 World Cup and have enjoyed watching it (even though we went out far too early for my liking!). 

Before the half-term holiday, Biscuit and Cracker had their very first non-school uniform day at school with the Rugby World Cup as the theme. 

Honestly, how cute do they look?! Biscuit and Cracker are both wearing England rugby tops, bought by Mammy and Mamps for the occasion. Obviously these are very hard-wearing and tough tops. As they are also half-Italian, they are wearing Italian tops from the 2014 Football World Cup underneath! We couldn’t say fairer than that! 

We teamed Biscuit’s top with her pink leggings from Boots. She was more than a little excited to be able to wear her Frozen Crocs to school as she still loves them. 

Cracker is wearing a pair of denim jeans from Primark with his top, as well as the Cars Crocs I struggle to get off his feet at any time other than school. 

Thank you for reading our #TT_Thursday. For more information, and for other posts please check The Mother Geek and Clearly Bex and look at their wonderful websites! 

We hope to see you very soon. X 

Hello! Remember us?! We’ve missed three weeks of #TT_Thursday, which is unheard of for us. I apologise; Biscuit and Cracker have started at pre-school full-time and so wear uniform all day and then get home and it’s straight in the bath and then in their pyjamas as they’re so tired. This current routine is not great for showcasing lovely clothes. 

Luckily, we finally managed to get out and about last weekend and here are the results. 

Biscuit’s gorgeous dress is from a brand called ‘Wear Your Heart On Your Sleeve’, which I found at T K Maxx a little while ago. It is short-sleeved (worn here with a long-sleeved t-shirt from M&Co for warmth), beautiful embroidered front and a delicate blue flower pattern on the skirt. It also washes surprisingly well (I’ve even managed to wash chorizo sauce out of it) and Biscuit thinks she’s a princess in it. Her flower headband is from Next Children, it was bought for my brother’s wedding and I wanted her to wear it more than once!! Obviously she has on her Frozen Crocs; she has missed these having to swap them for school shoes most of the time! Goodness knows what we’ll do in winter. 

Cracker makes no secrets of his absolute love for Disney Pixar’s Cars, so when we recently popped in to Primark for harvest festival clothes and he saw this short-sleeved Cars t-shirt he really wanted it! I teamed it with a long-sleeves grey t-shirt from Mini Club at Boots for warmth and he picked his new grey shorts from Blue Zoo at Debenhams to wear with it. You can’t see them, but I think you can guess what shoes he has on- yep, his Cars Crocs

Thank you for bearing with us through this huge period of change. I hope to be more organised on our weekend and be able to show you when Biscuit and Cracker wear when we aren’t totally exhausted in the evenings!!!! 

For more Trendy Tot Thursday you know what to do; pop on over to The MotherGeek and Clearly Bex and see what other Trendy Tots are out there (there are a lot of them). 

Thanks again Cx 

To my sleeping Twinkles,

Tucked up warm in bed,

Tonight is the historical night

Mammas like me dread.

Tonight you’re still my babies,

Tomorrow you’ll be grown,

You’re starting your first day at school,

(I shouldn’t really moan).

But I remember your first breaths,

Your first words and your first steps,

Watching you grow up in three short years,

It’s left me feeling blessed.

Now you’ll meet new friends,

And I’ll hear names that I don’t know,

I can only hope they treat you well,

I’m not sure I want to let you go.

Your new teacher will be guiding you,

She’ll teach you all the time,

Please don’t forget that up ’til now,

All your lessons have been mine.

When I see you dressed in the morning,

In your blazers, ties and shoes,

It’s going to serve as a reminder,

Of the tiny outfits I used to choose.

I can’t believe this day is here,

It’s seemed to come so fast,

As we’re preparing for your future,

I can’t help thinking of the past.

You guys used to be so tiny,

You still are in my eyes,

But look at you all ready to go,

Your morning kisses are my greatest surprise.

Good night my baby Twinkles,

I made you both from scratch,

I hope you sleep better than I probably will,

You need energy to help you run and catch.

Good luck in your first day at school,

I know you’ll do just fine,

Just please remember to give me one last kiss,

And whisper “love you Mamma of mine”.